Most of the people reading this blog know me ... or knew me back in the day. So most of you know that I have to manage my moods. In other words, I have a mood disorder - I get easily depressed and/or anxious. For those of you who didn't know, it explains some things, no?
I'm planning on writing a longer blog detailing a few things about my journey through depression and anxiety (if you're at all interested) because I have some young friends with the same problem and I think, perhaps, I could share some of my experiences and help them. But the following is a small part of the story.
Last summer I was doing a lot of reading about the treatment of our food-animals and decided I'd rather be vegetarian, or at least try to eat less meat. In doing so, I reduced the amount of protein I was eating and increased the carbs. Because of inherrited blood-sugar problems, this created a problem with sugar highs and lows that was unacceptable (eating breakfast and 2 hours later feeling sweaty and shaky and needing to eat again). So I returned to eating flesh and completely cut out the sugar in my diet. Extreme, perhaps, but it solved the problem. (I understand that I could probably be vegetarian if I researched better protein sources, and someday I might - I'm just not motivated to do that at this point in time).
Well, in the process of balancing my blood sugar, my moods also balanced out. I went from having to take my "little pills" 2 to 3 times a week, to not needing to take them at all. In short, I was fine. Even when stressed. Which is completely unheard of.
And then came Halloween (yesterday, to be precise). I had a day free to do some baking, so Noel requested cinnamon buns which I made and ate a couple of (and they were damned good, might I add). After those, I figured it was too late anyhow, so had some Halloween candy, too.
It literally took about 2 hours for my mood to start to slip, and when I woke up this morning I felt completely defeated. I was sad and didn't want to deal with anything. I skipped yoga, but went to work (which was okay, but still not terrific). In short, I felt like crap (and my digestion wasn't right, either). I took a pill and now feel pretty numb.
So, to make a long story just a little bit longer, it is totally NOT worth eating sweets when it makes one feel this way. I have friends who try to talk me into eating sugar, or feel sorry for me because I can't have the things they are enjoying so much, but it's okay. I'd rather be happy. I don't know if staying away from sugar would help most people with mood issues, but it certainly helps me.
I'll let you know if I feel better in a couple of days after this binge wears off. (Okay, we're talking 1 1/2 cinnamon buns and about 5 halloween chocolate bars - not that much, really - not what most would call a binge, but when your system isn't used to it, it's a shocker, apparently). Until then, I hope the rest of you aren't feeling like this. And I really hope you had a fun Halloween, whatever you were doing.
P.S. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. Just learn that nutrition can have a real impact on many aspects of one's life. ... Oh! and, if I'm acting weird when I'm around you, I really DO have a reason.