Christmas is a crap shoot. Sometimes it comes with a great many emotional ups and downs. A lot of the time there is good and bad and I'm relieved when it's over. This year has been nothing but peaceful. And I am grateful ... VERY grateful. And I wonder if it has something to do with my mental state (not so much a wonder, really - a realization is more like it).
I've been feeling particularly balanced the past 2 weeks. Reducing my workload, cleaning my house, focusing on me for a while with exercise and a little too much baking and eating - it all combined to help me be more balanced (by the way, sugar no longer seems to be irritating my anxiety and depression .A year ago I couldn't eat an M&M without becoming irrationally sad - now I can pig out on chocolate and not a flinch ... I now need to lose some weight, though). So no doubt this all helped.
I've been doing a few other spiritual (New Age, if you will) things that I'm not ready yet to share on the blog - and those have been helping a lot, too, I think.
So all in all, I'm feeling good. And because of that, Christmas vacation with my In-Laws has been very relaxing and nice. Time to exercise, read, rest, best sleeps I've had in a long time. I haven't been over-reacting to little comments or looks that never mean anything but sometimes send me into the void. This is wonderful. And teaches me something important. Life needs less stress on a regular basis. Let's see if I can manage that in the New Year.
For all of you, I hope you've had a nice Christmas with family and friends. And I hope you're feeling as balanced as I have been. If you have not, I wish it for you in the future!
Of course, there are still a few days left until the regular routine sets back in ... lots of time for things to teeter off the balance point - but let's hope not!