Well, nothing about this journey has been a breeze. I had heard that after you hit 40 years old your metabolism changes drastically and it is harder to lose weight - but I wasn't sure I believed it. I do now. Plus, when you get older, you need fewer calories, but it is really hard to re-train your brain to eat less.
I also learned that I am most definitely an emotional eater. Recognizing that has been a revelation. And although I'm not sure I've conquered it, being aware is the first step, right? Knowing that there is a non-life-supporting reason for my eating is important.
I don't think I am the healthiest eater that I could be. There is still a chocolate addiction I need to face up to. But I managed to lose the weight even with chocolate pretty much every day.
As I mentioned before, I signed up for an account on www.myfitnesspal.com - and it has been a great tool.
I really do understand that I am not currently overweight. And I know a lot of people struggle far more than I do with food (to the point of addiction, which I am not at), with emotional eating and with weight loss, but each of us has our own personal journey and experience. For me, 147 was the number beyond which I was not willing to go. Because I never want to be THIS heavy again (taken when I was probably 155 or 160lbs several years ago - around 2004 or 2005):
But I would like to be closer to THIS weight (taken in 2007 when I was probably 130 or just under):
Amazing the difference 25 or 30 pounds makes to how you look - but more amazing is the difference in how you feel. I much prefer to look and feel like that skinny chick in the bottom picture - although I'd have to lose another 10 pounds to get there.
What it really comes down to, though, is that I still feel like me, no matter how much I weigh. And fortunately I have a husband who loves me no matter what. So it's not like my lifestyle, relationship or quality of life is greatly affected by an extra few pounds. But a little bit of extra weight can really affect self esteem, and it can cause health problems, too - even an extra 15 or 20 pounds.
Not sure where I'll go from here - but I'm hoping to not go UP!! Not sure if I'll aim to lose a few more pounds - maybe get to 135 again. But I've taken a step in the right direction, even if it took a long time, and I know how my body has changed. It just took a really long time.