Okay. Well. I have done a few good things this week.
I tried to eat when I was hungry - not when it was time to eat, but when my body told me it needed food. And smaller portions.
I stopped with the sweets. Even with www.myfitnesspal.com, eating chocolate and grilled cheese sandwiches is not a way to lose weight. So I cut out the chocolate, ice cream ... anything that we would consider dessert or candy. See, before, I figured that I could eat a little bit of this stuff and still lose weight as long as I kept my numbers in balance (calories in, calories out), but the truth is that once I had some, I would have a little more. My cravings would then cause me to eat a lot more of it. And, surprise! I suddenly was eating almost as many calories in sweets as other things.
So for me ... cold turkey. The only way I can manage. I haven't cut sugar out altogether. I'll still eat instant oatmeal - and yogurt - and sauces with sugar. But no sugary drinks, no chocolate, no pop, no ice cream (etc.).
Oddly enough (even though I preach this a lot to people I still don't realize it until I do again) my mood has been much more balanced without the sugar. Funny that. The wild swings I was having have gone away.
And last night, for the first time in a really long time, I slept without any drugs. I slept from 11 until 7 with only one wake up and I didn't have to read or watch TV or anything to get back to sleep. I was awake for maybe 10 minutes (not 2 hours). Huzzah! I'm not presuming that this will continue, but it was really, really nice.
Now, last week I said I was 149 pounds. Really, I've seen the scale up as high as 151 in the past couple of weeks. This morning I was under 145. I'm not saying I lost 4 pounds this week - I'm sure I didn't, but there is a natural up and down of about 4 pounds and I'm at the lower end of it (with some weight lost, I'm sure). So I'm very happy about this.
Normally, I would give myself permission to eat more sweets. Not happening this time. I might allow myself a little more food at a meal, but no desserts!!
So, yay! Like most weight loss endeavours, mine has started off well. Let's hope I can continue. I did have one hell of a craving for sweets yesterday, but I managed to not give in.
For me, having one rule (no sweets) is a lot easier than trying to balance a bunch of different things. Just the way my brain works - less to remember.