Renaissance Woman

Hello to the person who reads my blog from Russia. Thanks for tuning in regularly. I'm happy to have you along. I don't think I know anyone who lives in Russia, so it's nice to think that you enjoy my blog enough to check in once in a while. I'd like to know who you are ... if you're willing to tell me. I'm curious about who may be interested in what I have to say ... and why.

I do a lot of thinking - about the world, about myself, about how I fit into the world. And I've realized that I absolutely LOVE to learn. But not just about history or science, although those thrill me, too ... I love to learn about how I fit into the world. This is where I get my passion for life, even when I'm not feeling terrific. I love to realize something about myself ..... like realizing that I love to realize something about myself. It's like the main purpose of my life is to get reacquainted with me. And the world. Because I become thrilled when I learn something new about the world, too. As a continuation of that, I assume that other people are the same, and I like to share my realizations - because I like to hear about theirs, too (it often sets off a realization in me) - and so ... THE BLOG! (read like THE BLOB! --- because it's funny). My blog is really like a diary. And maybe it would be better to keep all this crap to myself. But it seems right to write ...

I'm experimenting a little with growing food plants indoors. I started in the fall after a few tomato plants just started coming up on their own in August. So I brought them indoors. I also brought my basil (which was tiny and about 3 inches tall) inside in pots. And see what they did: Peas aren't doing too well - just not enough light, but they have produced a few (with help from a paintbrush to pollinate ): Here are some of the tomatoes (which also need pollination help): And, for Marie, here is one of the garlic bulbils that I planted. I planted 15 of them, and 2 are coming up. Not huge, but growing. Not a HUGE success, but fun nonetheless, and I didn't have to watch perfectly good plants freeze. Wonder what I could do with a real greenhouse.

I'm starting to wonder if this blog is just a way of being completely self-absorbed. So I may take a break for a few days. Well, it's Christmas anyhow, so there is other stuff going on, but I think I need to stop writing about the things I'm thinking and experiencing - at least for a little while. I will, however, see if I can write about some of the things I'm doing around here. That might be fun and maybe you guys might like a bit of a change. Feedback helps me know if you're enjoying it, though, so please feel free to comment here or on Facebook. Seems, though, that people who read blogs are hesitant to comment. I ponder why ... But I won't write about it. :)

Funny what you find out. The woman I had problems with at the library ... turns out she had run out of her medication the day she tore into me. It makes sense to think that two emotionally unstable people would, perhaps, react badly to each other (I'm only assuming she is taking drugs for an emotional issue). After that she took a few days off because she was "sick". I always forget to think that other people also have their own issues - I'm too busy trying to figure my own out, I guess, and am usually more than ready to take the responsibility for the conflict on myself. This same situation has happened to me in the past. When I was quite young (17-18), I worked at a museum and the woman who was in charge of us was a little volatile at times. Well, one day she tore a strip off of me. Turns out that she had missed her medication as well and took it out on me. In the earlier instance, I don't remember the woman apologizing to me personally, and it certainly didn...

It's been an interesting couple of months. As I've mentioned a few times, September and October were the best "mood months" I've had in years. Attributed, in my mind at least, to not consuming sugar. Then I started work at the Wetaskiwin Library, and because of reduced time to: exercise; take care of things that I felt needed to be done; go to my yoga classes; etc., I started to feel crappy, over-react to things, and generally just not be my new normal, balanced self. Originally, I decided to take on this job because an extra $400 per month would be helpful, I'd get out of the house and see people, make new friends, etc. And it sounded like a good idea. In retrospect, for whatever reasons, it's affecting my health - both physical and mental. So it is not worth it. So I started thinking ... what is more important to me than the $12/hr that I was making at the Library? And that led to thinking: What is more important than money or the things it can buy? Of ...

I hate to jinx it, but after a week of doing my regular exercise, and not eating even the "sugar free" cookies, I am feeling SO much better. Funny how following my own advice actually helps. Hmmm. Maybe I should do that more often. Thank you God (and my own common sense) for helping me to feel better - because this is much improved from last week. So on this snowy Friday night, feeling calm and happy (again, thank you God), I sit here and think of all of you who regularly read my blog. I can't tell you how appreciative I am that you are interested enough in what I have to say that you click on my link and read my posts. I truly feel blessed. Most of the people who read this are my friends. And I feel blessed for that, too. Thank you. Thank you also for all the positive comments - written and spoken - about the blog, about my writing and just in support of me and my life. Positive feedback is important to me. And in this case it gives me the confidence I need to follow oth...